The little child had returned to remind and reassure me
to believe in my abilities and myself.
A few months ago, I sat on a balcony three stories above the Gulf of Mexico in Key Largo, Florida. The pre-sunrise morning had a calming stillness about it. As I sat alone, I listened to a guided meditation.
One of the suggestions during the practice asked me to imagine looking in the window of my childhood home and describe the scene. How old was I? What was I doing? How did I look? And, how did I feel looking at “little Steve”? On the other side of the window, I saw my younger self, sitting there.
On that balcony, with my eyes closed, I saw this unfold in my mind’s eye, at the tip of my nose. I distinctly remember experiencing a flood of emotions. Some happy. Some not so joyful. At one point of the meditation, young Steve, turned toward the window and looked at his older self, staring at him from the outside. As I looked into his eyes, little Steve looked hopeful, fearful, joyful, and tearful. He appeared to need reassuring. What would it be like on the other side of that window his eyes seemed to ask?
A few days ago, during my morning meditation, a host of random thoughts attempted to crowd into my bid for peace in the gap. All at once, I experienced a blur—kind of a fast-motion video—at the tip of my nose. As I focused, the image slowed down. I saw faces of smiling innocent little children pass by. Finally, there was little Steve again. Looking me straight in the eye. Why was he back? Had he ever left?
I searched for a message—what was the little person looking for?
At the time, I had been grappling with a few major decisions and challenges. More so than normal (for me), I had been feeling a bit anxious about the next steps. When I thought about my younger self, I remembered all of the times little Steve felt anxious about the future—sometimes, just about the next day. Back then, I found a way forward. At times with help from those near me and, at other times, by my own grit. (Though, at the time, I had no idea what “grit” or “resilience” meant.)
So, maybe, the little child I saw at the tip of my nose that morning had returned to remind and reassure me to believe in my abilities and myself. In his child-like way, he knew I was the one needing reassurance. He had my back and he reminded me of all I learned years earlier about courage, fortitude, and appreciation for myself.
You, yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe,
deserve your love and affection.
– Buddha –
Video recommendation for the week:
Enjoy this video reminder of what children can teach us…if we only pay attention. While I cannot speak about the book promoted in the video (I have not read it), the video packs a lot into a brief few minutes. Enjoy.
Make it an inspiring week and H.T.R.B. as needed.
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